" not everything that is faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed until it is faced "

for so long i had been fixing my gaze on things that were very fast and very temporary, like a twitter feed. when you fix your gaze on the speedy, you feel pensive, amped up, liable to be washed away if you don't move, wave, shout. now i found myself staring at something very old and very permanent. this ocean was here long before you, i thought, and it will be there long after your small concerns are forgotten. twitter makes you feel that the whole world is obsessed with you and your little ego - it loves you, it hates you, its talking about you right now. the ocean makes you feel like the world is greeting you with a soft, wet, welcoming indifference. it's never going to argue back, no matter how loud you yell.

“ have you been feeling burnt out? were you ever on fire to begin with? “

at some point, blaming everything on your parents just becomes so exhausting